secretgarden

2009-03-14T01:29:00.000-07:00

reproached myself

i started thinking back

wad have i done to

deserve all these

well, i suppose this is

wad everybody called; karma

just to think about

how many bad things i have done

this is so miserable

i am feeling so lonely

i just wanna to get out of

this period as soon as

possible

i have run out of excuses

to allow myself to stay

at home

recession is not a reason

to mee

i am getting restless

i am getting lost

i am getting lifeless

but i am still going strong

i been trying as hard as

i could but..

there are just too many

things to consider

crying doesn't helps at all

i am just upset

2009-03-11T21:26:00.000-07:00

purpose of life

shucks, i realize loads

of mistake in previous post

but i nt gonna edit either

tats oso show how i really

felt at tat certain point of time

i need assurance.

2009-03-09T19:46:00.000-07:00

020309 sunshine day

agenda:

- went to interview (which turn out to be stoopid)

- vivo city for lunch (mixture of 3 jap restaurant)

- SPH for ticket collecting (last min decision)

den it started raining on our way back

and i managed to spot rainbow

thou i missed that double one

i was glad i saw this, it last for quite a long time((:

#01 smth we dun always dun miss out

#02 i look bit tanner ahs (but nw i am back to square one=.=)

#03 digging for some gold perharps

#04 yakiudon, awesome which we cnnt finish because i was too greedy

#05 spicy miso ramen; our top ONE fav

#06 i long for the sun

#07 the sun was too glaring

#08 i swear my eyes were opened

#09 hello up there, and bye((:

2009-03-09T07:34:00.000-07:00

well, i defeated by myself

i lost to myself

i was competing with myself

all this while

and i lose it badly

comparing, jealousy, pride

landed me in such bad state

i am a sore loser, i admit

i couldnt do anything at all

i had enough of been housekeeper

i need to move on

but how to when i wasnt given

a chance

false hope, waiting

is getting mee fed up

verbal agreement shld never

be trusted,NEVER

it only make you disappointment

escape, hiding

makes me a coward

but wad else can be done

when my resources are all cut off

2009-02-28T23:59:00.000-08:00

TWENTY EI8HT SHALL BE BANNED

FROM MY LIFE FOREVER

i am still upset abt it

till nw

2009-02-23T02:49:00.000-08:00

23rd as it is

one mth since

i left sch

one mth since

sch ended

one mth since

i am jobless

ps:

c.gwee and A. gwee are

really really nice((:

as why am i still here?

i am wide awaked

i cant make myself slp nw

as i am nt slpy nw

HAHAHAH

I HEART(L) "jon & kate plus 8"

2009-02-23T01:12:00.000-08:00

so for this week:

i visited dear phoebe((:

for less den an hr

due to time constraint

but will be back agn

i went for axel's burfdae celebration

nt knowing why

i agreed on going

and just ended up there

and got myself smelling

worse den bbq pork

HAHAHAH

i passed my BTE finally

before 20th thankfully

*jumps*

i swam four times

once in de morning

and gotten myself real burnt

thrice late at nite

and gotten myself frozen

and i am peeling nw=.=

HAHAHAH

i went to ichiban

out after 5 hrs

and gotten myself

with just twenty bucks:(

on monday, i tot my week would

be boring and worse off

but gladly, frends came knocking

on my door *ding tong*

and today, its sunday

so i passed my week just lidat

chatting with charis on

our past years was awesome((:

tasks for nxt week:

1. look for job

2. search for job

3. must get a job

2009-02-20T13:42:00.000-08:00

if only i had been rational

i wouldnt have made tat

impulsive decision:(

den i would be seeking so hard

for a new job nw

thou i never really regret

and i have never really

tot of it either

but nw its really torturing mee

i really couldnt adapt to de one new

well, i really shld walk out

of comfort zone but...

its nt de money tat matter anymore

thou its still important

okays, contradicting

"but", "if nt"

i really hates all those words

thou nobody really voice out

but i am nt having a good

feeling either

i just wanna follow my

whole decision

but i couldnt decide at all

and i am swayed easily

anyhow, i end with 2 red potato((:

2009-02-20T13:17:00.000-08:00

did i mention

we had a gathering agn (150209)

like once a year

HAHAHA

and its always her celebration

but thanks to her oso

nt becos of chloe,

we wouldnt have de chance to

meet as well

and so how shld i called this?

3e3 meeting?

no leh, nt match

so lets name it as grove meeting((:

so we had lydia, charis and of cos

de main role, chloe

we went for steamboat

very long since we had steamboat

the very last time would be

sec one, at marina bay!!!

with all those toot guys too

HAHAHAH

but nether-less, we can still tok

de same old topic without fail

even twenty years down the road,

we would still be laughing at the

same old joke agn

HAHAHA

de only thing tat we realize tat

we really grown up

we laugh at our own silliness

we couldnt believe tat

we actually did all things

and we are seriously

bombard by 饅頭

a lot until we couldnt count at all

dey are hard to resist ahs

and so i am waiting for fotos

frm pok and bao((:

i only have those taken on our

way back

lydia went de other way ahs

(wierd east side ppl)

PEEKS(L)

but i seriously cant stand my small eyes

*glare hard*

#01

#02

#03

#04

#05

#06

i shall wait for the trip invitation nxt((:

2009-02-20T13:11:00.000-08:00

wad a sight!?!?!?! *cover face*

just look at how many times i went

just for BTE alone

look, its just evaluation only

i bet nobody can be any worse den mee

wad a stoopid fool i am

i wonder how can i carry on next

guess tat the amt of money wasted

is needless to say

2009-02-16T19:54:00.000-08:00

another week passed yet agn

but it was a rather good one

unlike this poor week

random peeks((:

(130209)

#01 how long since we last took tgt

#02 toilet was de best place

imac

(120209)

and i got my stitches remove as well

in less den 2 mins

2009-02-16T19:20:00.000-08:00

went out earlie for application

(110209)

and wasted a lot of time

thinking and deciding

before investing 55 plus

is it worth or nt?

we shall see when time reveal

and suddenly dearest shuhui called mee

and happily we went our

V day + impromptu meet ups

and i was broke becos of them

HAHAHAHAH

we bought lovely shoes tgt

and got 10% staff discount surprisingly

and becos of that

我上了艦船

HAHAHAHHA

my poor feets went sore after

wearing it))':

yet again, we had neoprints

advice: cnnt take too many times lahs

so nt happy with the outcome

cant find wad we wanted neh

#01 shot

#02 shot

and we had NYDC

and had a lovely time over there

laughing at each others

like always

and caught carmen in surprise

well, i dun think i can jump out of jco

for the time being neh

stolen from cecilia because she haven

send mee de fotos yet!!

did uu see this>?

2009-02-16T19:11:00.000-08:00

despite my pig face

after wisdom surgery

i still went out (070209)

and take neoprints some more=.=

(but its nt obvious in fotos)

here we go((:

*original

*close up

*2nd shot

*taken another day

*and we got this

credits to cecilia((:

2009-02-16T19:04:00.000-08:00

updates((:

i LOVE 28th (L)

flower fest 2009

welcome

春節花會

our entry pass

2009-02-07T13:14:00.000-08:00

My date with dentist 3

wisdom tooth extraction again

but this time round

its so so different

surgery, it had to be

cos it is located to the bone

so no choice

had a xray

and it was so damn funnie

doctor quek: "123. everybody siam"

*everybody runs off*

pong, it was done

and i saw how nice my

teethes look nice

HAHAHAH

and the surgery started

injection first (and it was a killer)

den putting on robe

cover my eyes

cover my hair

and everything

tested if i really numb

and it went on

my whole head moved

when he is trying so hard

to pull it out

and de nurse had to pull my

head back

and i heard sawing as well

3 stitches and i can felt the thread

and tada!!

i look like a pig nw

swollen if uu had seen mee

and i really really cant decide

it would be best if there is

admin job now

i dun wan to go for F&B anymore

i am nt used to it alr

there is still driving lesson

to settle

application forms to be send

transcripts to request

everything need money

all administrative charges

not to mention graduation trip,

sadly i do not have any

i been in and out of job this

week

i accept one and reject the nxt moment

at this condition now

i cnnt work as well

till i settle everything and calm

i really cnnt think now

no doubt i am rotting at hm

proudly to announce:

I AM OFFICIALLY SINGAPOREAN NOW

2 yrs... latter, i got to go and take oath

(cos underage now)

2009-02-04T22:22:00.000-08:00

ii am bbbbbOOOOrrrrEEEddddd

i gt a lot of things to blog

but things seem to be

holding me back

2009-01-27T10:20:00.000-08:00

i tell uu

my sista and i are really

steelpard, u know

we dunno even know

how to cook lahs

except for maggie mee

and white rice

HAHAHAH

we really terrible lahs

our plan to dish up

some stuffs failed =.=

all black and into de bin

and her great idea of

buying kimchi man

de smell is really prrooffff

new year is so so boring

its so hard for a day to

pass by..

2009-01-26T12:54:00.000-08:00

i am nt alone this chinese new year

hui jun really gave me

a S-U-R-P-R-I-S-E!!!

after so long

she finally called mee ahs

when we were working,

she neh even called lahs

HAHAHAH

and we shall tell uu

this silly frend of mine

(ps: i told uu i wud post it up)

hahahah

but anyhow, i went over to her hse

for reunion dinner

or rather its alone

cos i am late

it was a last minute decision

looking at how enthu her family

members were

its really heartwarming yahs((:

de best part of playing games

us screaming together

which oso shows that

one mth older really does

make a difference yahs *winks*

let battle ship some time agn

jenga is de best part

where everybody plays tgt lahs

dun belittle Japanese ahs

she is really pro man

hahaha

and we oso know who is de loser sia

and this really remind me of

huiling; hers oso 3 sisters

we oso used to play tgt

our plan to see sakura undies failed

HAHAHAHHAHAHA

but we lost thanks to tat kuku

oh, no peeks taken cos dey all

wear too pretty liao

and nobody tot of taking as well

thanks mr toh for sending mee

back((:

新年快樂

恭喜發財！！

HUAT AH~~

eh, steelpard, i can type cheena liao HOHOHO

2009-01-26T12:19:00.000-08:00

10 years of spoon-feed education

3 years of PBL education

and so whats nxt for me?

no more posting to the next school anymore

after 13 years of education

its time to step in to society

or remain at the safe side

stay at education again?

and i really missed everything

all the CCA i joined

chinese orchestra

concert band

kayaking

all the bonding cant even

neber be found back agn

PBL has successful make me

into a damn lazy person

with just cut and paste

(just like art & craft lesson) HAHA

but anyhow, it build my

confidence level to the

highest level

looking at how much we improved

during these 3 years

and giving the excuses to

skip school

RJ questions allowed us

to think further

how i used to chiong for RJ

at the last min

rushing to complete it

after work

and so just nice,

my work ended well tgt

with rpee

well, last day was nice as

expected

shld have jus skipped it instead yahs

siewying and i were only

excited in the morning, tats all!!

the 6 klasses i had

be it good or bad

W25K

W16B

W65K

W67D

sudden change in yr 3

different klass everyday

and i couldn't rem them

at all

dun even mention

names of klassmates

G301

G302

CE PTS

and with all these, i ended

my stayed in rpee

17 apr 2006 - 23 jan 2009

diploma in business computing

((:

2009-01-23T02:01:00.000-08:00

despite of my gum pain

i still manage to smile/laugh

happily while taking fotos

well, dey certainly took

my pain away

if not for her, i wouldn't

have make it to sch

and enjoy it so much man((:

there are too much fotos

for mee to upload

dey are all in facebook

2009-01-23T01:27:00.000-08:00

my date with dentist II

uu must be thinking

its either i am in great pain

or de dentist is simply

too loussy

you are rite,

i am in great pain

even after a visit to de dentist

tell mee how great can tat be

when i woke up

at 3 for day 1

at 4 for day 2

at 2 for dat 3

i cant take it anymore

its really too pain for me

to bear

i went down after school

but it was fully booked

so i left my name there

and happily forgotten about it

at abt 10.30

dey called

and i was really surprise

but dey kept me waiting agn

for abt half an hr =.=

but its definitely worth the

waiting

DR. QUEK YEOW HSIEN

practically just save my day lahs

and i had my wisdom tooth

plucked up

de jab was even worse den

extracting out

the tooth lahs

4 somemore

i felt like screaming man

and he was reallyreally amazing

he took it out with his

bare hands

and he was talking to mee

at the same time

but de time, he was done

i was already like jelly

i gt no strength at all

and half of my mouth is

still numb

and i have to finish all this

!@#$%^&

of course it costed a bomb agn

even more ex den first date

(but my mama pay)

and it oso prove smth

guy is so much better lahs

anyhow, look at this

one more day!!!

den i am over and done with

and start rotting soon

2009-01-21T18:51:00.000-08:00

My date with dentist

i felt that it is world war 3

in my mouth man

during that 40 mins

i can see hows de equipment

look like before going

into my mouth

the pain is so unbearable

i felt like crying man

and it sounded so much

like sawing my teeth off

water splashing everywhere

(i nt quite sure abt it)

after which, i told myself

1000x

that i gotta brush my teeth

(nt that i dun)

anyhow, consultation fees

is nt tat cheap ahs

and the pain is even worse

before gg to dentist:(

i almost feel like fainting on

de street

i can feel/sense blood

is in my mouth

but when i rinse,

there is nth

but when i got hm,

i realize i am really BLEEDING!!!!!

gasps

till now, it has nt stop

p.s.: thanks siewying for ur concern

keep asking mee whether

i want to eat man

touched *cries*

even thou its is buying ur

clothes but i felt more

excited den uu((:

bad luck fall upon me

all at one go

de feeling is so

horrible

terrible

vegetable

i am like in a dark tunnel

hoping to see some light

:(:(:(

2009-01-21T18:49:00.000-08:00

dun act smart

-FULLSTOP-

2009-01-18T13:39:00.000-08:00

this is the moment where

all of us look forward to

as well as afraid of

which is

decision making

23rd january,

it shall be

when we end our 3 years there

thou, we hated there

but everything is there

we started from nth to nw

we hated PBL and then

used to it

we hated the system and then

used to it

we used to be very hardworking

to start skipping school

we have too much hi-bye frends

in turn

we have 6 semester in 3 years

we have dozens of klassmates

its nt surprise when you dun

even know their names at all

0830-1600

five days per week

no changes at all

and den to

four days per week

with pp included

and now

three days per week

plus FYP included

so what have we achieved

during this 3 years?

frankly speaking, i cant answer at all

so what is the path ahead of it

what is route that i should take

i have no idea

is it wise to take that?

2009-01-18T13:23:00.000-08:00

i simply like the weather

for this whole week

cool to the max

think i can save one week

electricity

HAHAHAH

hope it goes on lidat

shines when it needs to

and turn windy when

it should be

like my feelings this few

days

its totally like the weather

going high and low

and because of one incident

i couldn't sleep well

and missed one lesson

as a result

this have nv happened

before

so it was that miserable

to be mistaken

on a lighter note,

i just bathed all my bears

2009-01-18T13:18:00.000-08:00

i have finally set my heart

and make that decision

looking at how dey cant

bear me to leave

(dunno if its real)

i couldn't control myself

fake myself with a brave

smile and left with glory

i hope

well, for certain reasons

i really couldn't accept

but i gt no choice but to leave

and now without it,

i felt the emptiness in me

i dunno wad to do at all

frankly speaking, i am lost

totally lost

but i need it desperately

in the current situation now

2009-01-15T23:16:00.000-08:00

The impact is too big
and i am pretty upset abt it

2009-01-13T13:14:00.000-08:00

Time to say goodbye

i have finally set up my mind

to leave

no more turning back

these ten mths had been a

great one

there is bad times

there is good times

several times we mentioned about

leaving but we stay put

we mgt be rational

always saying all those

angry words

but one main thing

is the bond

we are unable to let go

but looking at things now,

there arent anything for

me to hold back anymore

people came and left

and now

more and more changes

the whole management

is in a mess

i tried my best to ignore

but i really cant take it anymore

i am out of this game

no more guessing

no more pending

no more waiting

no more rejecting

i greatly learnt a lot

letter in on pending status

on de side-note:

i am a loser

i tot of turning back

as i need it to tide me over

for many things tat is waiting

for mee to settle

leaving is only a matter of time

i have yet to decide on my route to take

i need help!!

i cant think now

2009-01-13T13:08:00.000-08:00

Dear xx,

i sincerely wish and hope that her exams will end earlier and maybe bring forward the date. looking at so many people going, i felt like going too although i dun have the vitamin M now. but i really really wish to go back to that place again and enjoy it again. that time was just too rush and i didn't get what i wanted.

although i knew that my wish was being shot down long ago but yahs, nether-less i still buying a hope, be it just 1%. i totally forgotten about it until people remind mee again.

regards,

shijia(:

2009-01-07T22:18:00.000-08:00

o7JAN2009
a hundred times worse den friday13th

was totally a wrong day
1. red eyes from the moment i woke up

2. took half an hr to bathe and idk

3. forgot to bring hp
- nearly gt heart attack while waiting

4. no coins for bus
- so newspaper help
- thanks to siewying

5. i didnt bring my lappie for backup purpose *main*
- sy laptop could nt detect connection
- sy laptop cnnt be preview
- need diana laptop for notes
- these factors alone are enuf to scared us
we almost fainted on stop
it was a like test for us

6. Peter Kenny came to visit us for the last time *thumbs up*
- it was really sweet of him

7. FYP presentation
- i was like moving on faster
- kena bomb a lot of questions
- wasnt allow to finish with what on hand
- wasnt a really a good feeling

8. blisters on both of my little toes
- pain like crazy

9. our mini celebration plan changed
- sakae was open at 1130
- our slot was 0900
- we ended ard ten plus
- switched to swensens
- doesnt really enjoy much

uneventful things keep cropping up non-stop

return home and went out

10. hair dropping all over the face

11. shorts kept dropping

12. walk in the damn hot sun

13. kena cheated of appx 150/-
- thanks to cecilia; BBDC

14. was broke at tat instant
- pay all gone

15. parris plan changed
- high-tea is nt available

16. muji sucked all my money
- really loves the place a lot
- has a lot of wonderful stuffs

17. was really damn freaking hungry

18. no more organiser:(
- no more of wad i wanted
- and i needed one desperately
last by nt least, most unfortunate thing to end it

19. glass crashed down and hurt passerby in RC
- created a big hoo-ha
- two were injured
- bleeding
- glass shattered all over the place
- people bussy taking foto

20. i cant make my *** work at all :(

21. no peeks for the day
- no cable
- nt my cam
- i gt no cam!!

mixed feeling, i couldnt desrible how i felt after FYP
i couldnt think at all
but GOD was make it well for us
allowing our presentation to take place in time
no matter wad, its over and done with
well done, team!!
we have been thru from G301 t0 G302((:
and three cheers for everyone tat did it!!
we were left with one last step

2009-01-06T16:28:00.000-08:00

I WILL BE BACK SOON!!

STAY TUNNED((:

2008-12-15T01:04:00.000-08:00

CLOSED

2008-12-11T22:54:00.000-08:00

REVEALED((:

and i haven decide yet

2008-12-10T18:52:00.000-08:00

COMING SOON!!!

STAY TUNNED((:

ps: 2 more days(: so looking forward

2008-12-08T22:25:00.000-08:00

PRESENTING TO UU: ORIGINAL WAFFLES

TADAAAAA!!! ((:

any maple syrup to go along?

2008-12-06T11:16:00.000-08:00

okays, let backtrack

fridaes- isnt really a good one
and i have started to hate fridaes

thursday
i can never be any unluckier man
and it jus so happened to be on this day
adaptor spoilt
there is no way i can use
can see sparks flying out
no choice but to gave BF a miss:(
damn lot of times alr
how am i gonna graduate with this
kind of loussy grade?

so i started my journey searching
for tat adaptor
and sky wasnt on my side
it started pouring
1st stop - funan
keep walking in and out of shops
until i forget where am i suppose
to walk to
took mee abt one hr plus
but no valid
price too high

and you are sway
everything jus start to happen
and it jus dawn on me
like xiaoshi
when there is a cloud above her
tats was exactly wad happened

nxt stop - sim lim
it was even worse
its was raining so heavily
no part of mee is dry
i was drenched and dripping:(
and simlim is so big
where am i gonna to start with man
i jus settled at the first shop
i found
i was too tired to carry on
with any comparing

phew, finally it works and solved
i should have foresee this day
when SOON SIEW YING told mee
to change adaptor like long long ago ahs

and it was still heartwarming to see
frends, people lending a helping hand
thanks((:

wednesday
FYP time again
its either damn funnie or
damn scary
but todae was fine
short and sweet
it was a first time it came to a
agreement tat we are all sastified with
our work
but it should rite, at this point of time alr
time is running out
in less than 50 days

and pete really amuse me
with his stoopid mexico drawings
and his telly tubby
i cant help but burst out laughing

and i chanced upon LITTLEmisses and mens

i litterally changed to a child immediately
laughing at those fattys
HAHAHAH.

i wouldnt mind settling for this down since
i couldnt get a real one now
but dey are as thou the same size!!

#1 bring me home

#2 i bring you home

MELISSA ARAGON

tat was the last day i saw her

her 6 mths attachement finally ended

and there she went back

XOXO

2008-12-03T00:42:00.000-08:00

THE HOTTEST TOPIC IN TOWN NOW:
PET SOCIETY

ITS THE CHRISTMAS SEASON NOW
LOOK, ITS EVEN SNOWING MAN!!

its damn fun, at least for mee

my whole team is influence by mee (W64E)

we were playing till

we never bother abt ppt

whoops; HAHAH

looking at how one chiong is damn amusing lahs

buy and buy till we were broke

and wait for Santa to drop us gift

i am so turned off by YOU trying to be a nice

but i am so not interested in blogwar

YOU can continue as YOU deem fit

and its best for me to leave

in order for the clearcut

2008-12-01T13:29:00.000-08:00

i will never forget
what my frend once said:
"whats the point of saying sorry when you have already done it"
and from then,
i never accept any apologizes
for the hurt was done

thou i knew that
forgive, forget, forgotten
but its really not easy
and its even not easy to
hate someone
the amount of effort you take
to hate someone
is really miserable

i once did it and its nth to rejoice about
and karma did happened on me

and i guess november was nt
a good mth for us
and i quoted from her
"不要告訴我什麼好朋友。
好朋友都是假的騙人的！
所謂的好朋友是前的事了。
現在我只有一個好朋友。
它就是錢！
也許你們會覺得我很現實。
人都是現實的不是嗎？
更何況… 在當今的社會不現實那裡可以？
在好的朋友也會有出賣你的一天。
只有錢不會出賣你。"
and i totally agreed
it made sense, thou
and sometimes i really wish
i am damn rich
all the problem would be solved, uh
nobody fretting over that amount

and wow, if only i had seen it earlier
maybe i wouldnt be in this state alr
yet qouted from her
"嗨～算了～
一切都已經不重要了。
我生日當天什麼地方都不想去。
誰也不想見。
我只想一個人。
請不要來煩我！
也不要找我！
原本就沒打算慶祝或什麼的。
是你們一直問我要怎樣慶祝？有沒有慶祝？
我才決定約你們出來吃飯小慶祝一下的。
我好不容易空出時間。
可是… 最後…
那時候說有空的也是你們。
什麼都是你們在說就對了。"

ps:
thanks everyone for the concern
but i really wanna to put it to end
please, stop it
if there is a chance,
i would rather nth take place at all
please stop, everyone
no point harping on it
lets the clock turn back to
wad it used to be
its my fault, sorry

2008-12-01T00:38:00.000-08:00

indeed, wads are frends for
simple gesture tat dey show
is enuf to enlight me agn
its rather amazing to
see how one can
stand up for one
and showing that huge
amount of concern

so, i still have frends, huh?
HAHAHAHA
and JERRY,
give me a *silent* laugh
and i buy uu strawBELLY((:

2008-11-28T23:28:00.000-08:00

its no longer special animore
wad a surprise!!
有惊没喜
well, pretty much predicted
but i didnt expect to
be lidat

and thus i did not expect
anything at all
YOU got me excited all over
and yet i was treated lidat
YOU said as thou i was
the queen of the world
yet i saw tat expression in your eyes

and so, tat must be GOD punishment
hence, i deserve it
and its also show what
a good frend i am

its not a matter of going or nt
but the attitude
and thanks for treating me
lidat tat
i would be much appreciated
if YOU could jus keep ur mouth shut
really

every year, tat particular day
the same scenario yet happened
i refuse to believe it
but it jus happened rite infront of me
its always the same thing
jus role reversal

YOU being such a great lier
and i telling YOU now
YOU had done a great job
well done!!!
telling me how bad one can be
and it turn out to be otherwise
i saw the drastic change in YOU

ps:
thanks a lot for the arrangement
despite being so tired
and yet YOU dragged me along
looking at how high YOU got
got me pretty touched(:

all i hope for was simple wishes
and nah, i did not
not even from YOU
and YOU claim you are such a good frend!!!
goodbye
nevertheless, still thanks for those
who did;
no matter which way
YOU did
no matter which route
YOU chose
much appreciated(:

2008-11-27T15:45:00.000-08:00

ALLIWANTFORCHRISTMAS IS BIG BANG XDD
*jingle bells*

2008-11-26T00:50:00.000-08:00

WISHES STARTED COMING IN((:

kacheng: happy burfdae
mee: uh, its nt todae
kacheng: oh, no ahs, den i am de first to wish u liao loh
HAHAHAH
funnie sia

to be exact, wendy is de first
she is always the first
to give me pressie sia
HAHAHA

blindbat is nt giving mee
an easy time ahs

after looking at renfu's wedding shot,
i really really really really really
feel like getting married!!!!

2008-11-25T22:23:00.000-08:00

21 - 23/1108
simple yet wonder gathering
took me so long to decide
whether to go or nt
but i am glad i did
everyone was present
everyone was happy
splendid(:

and my dar cam works well(:
[dey are all scanned]
source: sunlight operated
everybody was amazed by
the toycamera

tea ceremony started off
with fire crackers
great(:
the whole ceremony was
funnie
dunno how to address
but gt angpow

hence, great gathering(:
it all ended well

#01 well taken(:

#02 he is the star(:

#03

#04 congrats(:

as i mentioned, must be under sunlight

so no more fotos taken

and my digi is dead

i need one *hints*

2008-11-24T21:48:00.000-08:00

started to build up
a wall unknowingly
blocking out others

i starting to get irritated
i starting to get pissed

emotion unstable
unpredictable

ps: leave me alone

2008-11-23T21:48:00.000-08:00

spider webs spider webs
forming; whoops
but i jus wanna to say:
I WANT TO GET MARRIED
我要结婚呀!!!!!!
such a blessing to get married

(:

(fotos up real soon)

2008-11-17T22:38:00.000-08:00

HOLGA are loves(:

2008-11-17T00:52:00.000-08:00

i cant take it animore
i cant surpress it animore

see, wad have uu gotten
mee into
uu treat everything as
a joke
but i am jolly well
telling uu not
uu are jus building
ur happiness on
my unhappiness
i repeat agn,
i am not a clown

i am super miserable nw
i wun be back till
i am feeling better

felt my steps seem
heavier each time i move
giving up in despair
is the only way i opt for
i wanna cry but i cant
nth is jus going rite

everything jus crash down
on mee
dun worry, dead is not
a option to me
but i jus dunno how to do

i kept thinking tat
MC is the real problem to it
but its been bugging for
one mth and a half alr
i am pissed off by myself
i am angry yet i am guilty
rite after
i simply cant describe
but i really can feel a
tension to it

i guess i used up all
my happiness at one shot
thus i am so nt nw

p.s: pardon me if i happen to
shout/rant at uu

2008-11-13T00:58:00.000-08:00

and i remembered
哭有时
笑有时
生气有时
and i think its very true
so moved on after
you had done with your crying

principle of life((:

2008-11-12T23:54:00.000-08:00

no work = LG (life good)
HAHHAHA
enjoyable life ((:
budden sad on de other hand
i proudly declare tat
i am so damn broke )):
i could hardly survive nw )):
i spent like dunno how much
jus within daes

so we gott nth better to do
but i gain a lot of magazines
thumbs up ((:

PEEKS/-

#01 look at my super messy hair

#02
stoopid drink tat stoopid banana wanted
make mee shat like crazy
i am like crying hell lahs
(but she is laughing at tat darn moment)
no wonder its free TSKTSK

#03 i am dying to watch like rite nw and run tgt with them HAHAHAH

#04 u can see my UPSIZE??

#05 guess we are too tired for anything

#06 took so long jus to take a peach =.=
and quack quack certainly makes mee go crazyy
lalalala~~

2008-11-11T15:28:00.000-08:00

i am seeing spider webs
i shld have post tis earlier
but i have no mood
plus uploading of peeks took
half of my time away
and so presenting uu agn

09 november 2008
pre-elmo burfdae celebration
we called tat
supposed to be november babies
gathering plus celebration
but its way before tat
and hers is just the nxt dae
so sort of celebration as well

part I - off to town
doing some shoppings
but i am like damn broke
part II - met up with wendy and make
it complete at sakae (westmall)
and uu know, i have a hard time
toking rubbish when she kept asking
mee where's wendy
i cant possibly tell her
"hey, we are planning something"
HAHAHAH.

PEEKS/-

#01 we love stage(:

#02 i dun see our faces

#03 thats elmo(:

#04 there we goes BONKers

#05 elmo and elmo(:

#06 i cant go uglier den tat :DD

#07 i am pretty happy with tis (:

and so, we surprised her with cakeee

#08 relighting candles HEHEHE

#09 she wished for her prince charming (maybe)

#10 10th, 28th, 29th NOVEMBER ((:

#11 super advanced twentyONE

#12 celebrated at sa-shu-kee (inside joke)

#13 november babies (:

#14 sweet TWENTY(:

#15 beloved frends

#16 she indulged (when she knew she cant)

#17 HAPPIE BURFDAE((:

#18 HAPPIE 21ST((:

#19 we ate and made a mess out of it!!

2008-11-10T22:35:00.000-08:00

upset
disappointed
pissed
crossed

after all this
wad can i do
why has gotta be now
everything
anything
at this pathetic moment

and i really hate to admit
and dun wish to face it
either
tat is always a issue
i wouldnt wanna to tok abt

tat feeling is back agn
i am gonna drop in tat
black hole in no time

2008-11-08T23:24:00.000-08:00

NUGGET!!!
my dear panny ungradded
i gotta pay 10 dolli more
for haircut
and shucks my pocket is
burnt once agn
i am officially broke

PEEKS
*no before fotos cos dey are nt nice so dun bother remembering them either

#1 tats us, new us

#2 my beloved retard BANANA((:

#3 so we look better, uh

and and she treated mee agn
with her very last paper moolah
tis time, we are really really hungry
budden i gotta say sorry to mama
she cooked
blame banana for tat
and we went to LULU
she did all the ordering
so all i did was to eat
HAHAHAH.

#1 lulu

#2 what do uu called this? frontier? O.O

#3 spare ribs

#4 lime (dunno wad) & milk tea

#05 XO sauce seafood rice (not veri nice)

#5 lotus bun, FREE; burfffddaaeeeee mth ((:

#6 so she is showing off her butt

#07 so does mee

#08 salad prawn or smth (nt veri sure)

#09 chicken her, didnt give warning!!!

#10 oh my goodness lahs

#11 laughing motion

#12 the whole world is looking at us

#13 so we left with our tummy bloated((:

oh mys, i reallly LOVE november lahs

its simply rocks

so many good stuffs

so many things to buy

so many promotion

burfdae-ss

banana, arent uu jealous

uu jus wait longlonglonglong lahs

ytd:

surprisingly, edward release

us at 3 plus

which is consider earlie

cos everyone gt ut

so i chiong rj

and went down with banana

we were earlie but ended late

we wasted our time

loitering ard before real stuffs

(tats explain why)

we had steamboat which dey

refer as buffet

(when i really tot so)

rather enjoying

thanks to whoever turn up(:

and i am damn full lahs

and no one tot of taking peeks

so i gt none

and went down to leisure park(kallang)

for some ball-ing *laughs*

i being the bottom rose up to high scorer

and top scorer went down

HAHAHA.

2008-11-08T13:02:00.000-08:00

i hate it
all pack of lies
and i am still pissed
if you wonder

2008-11-06T22:45:00.000-08:00

its so damn funnie ytd
looking at those
irritated faces
thanks to our whistling candy O.O
so to get someone irritated?
buy that candy

and i love throwing
to the max
i really threw like crazy
those balls
amazingly, we got listed
like after so long

TADAH^^

funniest of the day
one ah peh keep super close
beside me while waiting
for the train
and i dunno why
阿伯: 你踏到我脚
我: orh, sorry
he look so sad lahs
den stoopid cecilia
妈力: byebye
阿伯: byebye
looking at mee happily
wierd ah peh sia

peeks//-

35 mm AISHA((:

animal book bought for ~~stoopid~~smart cecilia

cookiemonster/elmo

her strangled chee-ken =.=

2008-11-05T01:44:00.000-08:00

did i mention tat

we went to THE NEW PAPER

BIG WALK

had to get up like real earlie man

and i did it

HAHHAS.

5 km was nt easy afterall

we grumble

we laugh

we nag

we talk

and finally pull us thru

to marina barrage

off to soduku after tat

cecilia's treat

she always like to bring mee

to eat whenever i am full

and i wonder why

sch reopened

back to normal routine

really hope tat virus

dun come back to mee

for the time being

buffet this friday, whose gg?

and its november

rejoice((:

2008-11-05T00:51:00.000-08:00

backtrack; 31 october
yessh, halloween!!
i am so glad i went
damn crowded man

but before tat, we had manicure
while waiting for tat korkor
banana always made me spend me ahs
HAHAHS.

peeks shall says it all>>>>>>>>>>

#01. lets get started

#02. spotted

#03. thats wads girls does when dey see mirror

#04. I LOVE BANANA((:

#05. banana is so scared of him

#06. nice shot [becos she shake]

#07. did someone mention he look like ah ting?

i jus took randomly

it was so dark, i jus t anihow

click click click

at the same time, protecting banana

but i was bitten by her

HAHAHHS

#08. dey jus appear out of nowhere

#09. he scared the hell out of banana

#10. stoopid pete said i look like pumpkin tat morning =.=

#11. he got 2 heads

and we got off the tram and started

our nite trail + ghost trail

and we got stuck in the nite trail for

abt an hr plus

walk and walk non-stop

#12. i like his tongue best ((:

#13. banana's face look so dead!!

#14. i almost fell lahs

#15. "quack quack", our best companion((:

#16. he insisted us to take this

#17. and i gotta my revenge HOHOHO.

#18 banana's fav dim sum po

#19. she scream like nobody business

#20. super high pitch witchy

#21. we got them post for us

#21. tat coconut really weight a tons man

we played till 12 midnite

till dey close

basically we were trapped in the nite trail

plus chris kept looking for his

gurlfrend, ms zhen

HAHAHAH.

was rather surprised when dey suggested

movie after tat

and the taxi is damn long queue

am was glad tat dey provide bus service

4 dolli compared to 22 dolli

am so broke lahs

so down to cathay for movies

was cheated to walk down

the street for some

soyabean and doughstick

while waiting for show

bought ticks for coffin

but watched saw v instead

dun ask how we sneak in

(cos its M21)

but we managed to

((:

IF THERE IS A NEXT TIME

costumers is a must

its damn fun

i am so gonna go back agn((:

2008-10-31T15:28:00.000-07:00

back frm FYP
2 days of it
i tot we were progressing well
but but but but
we were stuck once agn :(
todae meeting was rather
a good one
laughing all the way
"the giggle loop"
joke of the day
pete will comment on anything
nth better to do man
HAHA.
he had his unique way of
remembering names
you will laugh if uu ever know

todae meeting ended my holidays
a good five days i had
except for some msgs i had
in the morning
and i hope latta will be a good one
and den, i gotta be back to sch again (nxt week)

BATA, back to sch!!
HAHAHS(:

ytd:
thanks to chinny chin fui and banana
they really made my day
end faster man
dear banana kept
running back and forth
frm A'n'BC
and uu wonder why man
banana, go for art lesson lahs
HAHA.
chinny chin fui, go brush up
ur cheena lahs
HAHA.

2008-10-29T23:18:00.000-07:00

WE LOVE GOLDENHALF :D
peeks shall sae it all
ps: unglam taken away

#1

#2

#3 (dun ask me why izzit black there=.=)

#4 a good flash indeed (first try)

#5 banana loves tis(:

#6 this is how real we really are

#7 wrong exposure

#8 REDflash

thanks to tat auntie who

really really help us a lot

from telling us how to roll up the film

to waiting for us to make a decision

from giving us advice

to developing those fotos

the whole process is great((:

wait, i dun seem to see any

effect in taat 30 mins nia

HAHAHAH.

2008-10-28T23:01:00.000-07:00

peaceful sundae ihad
whole dae was well spent
basically becos half
of my dae was gone
i woke up at three
(rather shock for tat)
long time since i ever
wake up tat time
guess i slpt abt 14 hrs

attended wedding dinner
at orchard parade hotel
trust me, its nt near at all neh
somemore its someone
so nt related
but rather close
HAHAHA.
we were sitted rather near man
a table jus beside the main
GOOD(: a clear view

peeks((:

hols was a bad start initially

but things started to change

for the better

i have whole of mondae

to myself

thou bit bored

cos work was a nono to mee

sorry ahs, chris and banana

for the aeroplane

the terminal is jus too far away

and think i gt my revenge

todae

i was so pissed wif chandra

at the same time happy

no work again

and i gt my whole dae free agn

so happily, dilly dally

i went to settle some

impt stuffs

and lastly, banana gotten my

watermelon virus alr

HOHOHO

i simply hearts 杂货店 :D

ps: todae sure is my luckiest dae with ah neh=.=

2008-10-26T17:15:00.000-07:00

it was a bad start :(:(

2008-10-25T00:28:00.000-07:00

boos, i nv knew one movie

would cost so much ahs

nearly sixty bucks neh

HAHA.

jibbitz(L) *kids size*

but we still caught none

my pocket gt one big hole nw

HAHAHS.

MCflurry mudpie wasnt tat

great afterall

one hot fudge = fifty cents

tats scary banana *runs*

dear banana, thanks so much

for your great help todae man

and of cos, thanks for ur mary

to think i was wondering wad uu

wanna my key for

to open the door?

HAHAHAH.

*LOVES* ((:

some voodoo(:

(scribbles frm banana's fone COOL:D)

wad a lamb

chris kor kor? ROFL

i am not maria

and did i mention,

my holidays is like RIGHTNOW!!

hahahs

but one week onli nia =.=

2008-10-22T23:00:00.000-07:00

meeting with pete was
indeed a damn stressful one
was so turn off upon thoughts
of meeting him
no choice but dragged myself
to sch :/
we were caught dumbfounded
i admit, we were bit lazy
but we arent sure wad to
do either
and plus, we were fired
every meeting
HAHAHAH

FYP was a taxing one

but thanks to friso
and everything was brought over
such a relief
and indeed, we certainly
need a hard push
before we can proceed
so its well said that
one will do upon pressure

we were really caught at
a dead dead
die die oso must produce man
lucky we had mag for help
[not for the fact tat she forgotten
all about us -.-]

pete confirmation brought
a smile back on our face
*happy*
tats was wad it takes
HAHAHA
our next step now is to
move on like
damn fast
we are like a train now
we ought to be aeroplane now
FLYING.

we are so far far behind
otherwise we will kena fired again
HAHAHAH

2008-10-20T18:48:00.000-07:00

hav made a grave mistake
which i greatly cnnt
forgive myself for tat
whole of 3 three yrs
its jus nt getting any better

each time i saw students
in MI uniform
i would nv failed
to reflect upon how
i quit and left
i really feel like gg back
really really really

moreover, this 3 yrs
made mee feel tat
my decision was a deem bad one
superb bad

now i have made one
and have no wish for
history to repeat again
nxt yr, decision making
which i seriously hate it
paid a super high price
for this lesson taught
it robbed me of my 3 yrs
:( :( :(

i am really tired
need some enlightenment

2008-10-20T01:58:00.000-07:00

chatting wif chloe online
was great
as thou she was really
infront of mee

anithing under the sun
from A to Z
((:

2008-10-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

once again, dun test my patience
i am just controlling

i think u are really irresponsible
u can be a good frend
but nt a good working companion
just like u cant have ur best
frend in the same FYP team
the same reasoning
the same logic
i saw how u SELL fish
i can better off being with guys
but tongues start wagging
when u are on close term
with one
come' on, when can dey start
to think
if u enjoy being a queen at hm
so be it,
look, i am nt ur labourer or
wadsoever
u will start to panic when
troubles come knocking on the door
otherwise u will be
thinking tat i would bear
all the consequences

i am bad to spell it out nw
but i wud be even miserable
if i would to keep suffering
in the dark
REFLECT

no words can describe my feelings nw

2008-10-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY HSE NW(:
so lively
so happily
nt even bothered on
how dey mocked mee
i missed it

ps: third entries of the dae=.=

2008-10-18T18:38:00.000-07:00

apparently i dunno
wads wrong wif mee
i cant do things right

and i am like
finding faults with
everybody :(

# and i am so gonna buy this

or maybe robot lens 3

opps, did i mention tat
grandma and grandpa is here(:

and i have 2 damn bored saturdaes
all thanks to chandra (^(00)^)

and PLEASE stop influence mee
i cnnt take it anymoreDAMN
and half of skool term gone

2008-10-18T16:20:00.000-07:00

look forward;
we always said
but it seem tat
we are walking backwards

#peeks

#we walked thru

# best barista mate

# get ready for halloween(:

eski bar last nite
walked past the street like
upteem time
no feeling
no thinking
not tired at all
seriously, i have no idea
wad i am doing
peeks up when banana
send mee

BKKcancel :(

2008-10-11T19:17:00.000-07:00

always HERE and there(:

2008-10-10T23:11:00.000-07:00

i couldnt be happier todae
am so glad for myself
for attending skool
*a pat on shoulder*
i almost made the mistake
to turn back again

i was so reluctant to go
upon entering, i started regret
coming for lesson
but how long can i run away man
how many "x" am i gonna see sia

and todae, it was so brain-wrecking
felt so lost, and dun understand
a single thing
and i have yet to complete
reading on UT

but well, it is all over for nw
i love weekend
cos no need to go skool
but at the same time
this very moment
i hated weekend
cos its is so boring
HAHAHAH
stoopid.
den i realised tat i always
work during fridae [mostly]

tats why i chose to work
during weekend
boredom
but tired leh
and banana, i didnt leep todae leh

went bloghopping
okays, think i hate myself
i blocked myself frm other
yet i am doing so =.=
contra dicting.
i realised tat everybody
been going to GENTING
during september
but i SEEnone of them leh
or it just happened tat
i went so i noticed abt it
just like jco
and i start noticing donuts
thinking tat its the trend nw?

thailand, hongkong
wait for mee
i am coming((:

2008-10-09T02:23:00.000-07:00

i admit i am slow
but i am loving it man(:

BIG BANG.

2008-10-09T01:31:00.000-07:00

damn pissed off de whole dae
frm the moment i woke up
till i ended work
F.

how selfish can one
mankind be
AMAZING.

and i really wonder
to feel proud or ashamed
to cry or to laugh
people REMEMBERed my
name de bad way
band instructor know my name
cos my section leader
always complain abt mee
i believe
javain know who i am
must be something to do
with it
otherwise, there shldnt be
a reason for it
to hell, whoever the person is

and i still have
"害怕上学恐惧症"
when the sky turns dark
i am so afraid of
looking forward to morning
which also means sch
when i am in sch,
i am looking forward
to end the day
ironic, isnt it

i am nt tat great at all
my feelings still keep
going up and down
i think i can do it well
by hiding at home

and i am so proud of myself
for completing both drinks[dates]
at the same time
without panicking
all thanks to jas
for her recipe man
otherwise i cfm faint on stop
rely on myself rather
than waiting for ppl
the dae will nv come
esp with those fish mongers ard

2008-10-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

aftermath of standing the whole dae
muscle ache :[
and it was really tat bad
caught mee up de whole nite
and i had to use
ice cube to numb myself
from the pain
coldnt slp at all

until de nxt morning
i couldnt hold on anymore
damn sway, it always gotta
to mee all de time
no one else but mee

and i am rather amused
by his "why" reasoning
such a proud person
i came across
but wadever, tats him

one week, i managed to
hide myself well enuf
but i missed out alot
i dunno wads gg on
de world out tat
i really wanna to be
out of it
its tat saddening to
hold on to it when
actually nobodi else
care abt it anymore

it also let mee see
how sell fish is
mankind
how dey make use
how dey get rid
how dey pretend
how dey brag abt
how dey boast abt
how dey act

2008-10-03T11:17:00.000-07:00

escape, hiding
was de only way out for mee
[dun worry, i am fine]
couldnt help it aniwae
no idea either
its all come down to "feel"

i could comment on others;
gave advice
but unable to do myself thou
:(

thoughts floooded
overflowed
no explanation
and worse of all, it always
happened at least once every yr
and at tis time infact
i couldnt feel myself
my goal
and i dunno wad to do either

2008-10-02T21:35:00.000-07:00

SEPTEMBER - an eventful mth

the starts of sch
--> 3 daes sch per week

2 trips to msia
--> genting
2nd week rite after sch reopens
off with sexyassbanana
super duper fun
the 3 daes
updates real soon; i promise

--> penang + thailand
5 daes straight
a fruitful one indeed
thailand was an exceptional
it wasnt plan before hand
it was a splendid one
good food
good place
good ma sha ji
good people

and oso my first time
working till 12 midnite
due to F1

and we also had F1
[which sadly, i missed it]

there is more to come!!

2008-09-30T01:19:00.000-07:00

Peeks of de dae:)
currently at thailand(hatyai):) using fonè to blog is rather fresh and fun man.
HOHO:-)

2008-09-28T01:33:00.000-07:00

recently, have a tok wif frend
abt after-rp life
wads is our path den
everyone is thinking abt it
everyone is worried abt it
so do us
i seriously have no idea

i tried nt to think abt it
cos i knew i could nv make it:(
avoid it
prevent frm thinking
but apparently, it did nt leave my
mind at all
always came back knocking
once in every while :/

ps:" i can hear my dad is snoring away

SEXYASSBANANA, LETS COUNT DOWN TILL DEN ((:

2008-09-27T18:47:00.000-07:00

hey, silly monkeys out there
will be back on wednesdae
dun miss mee ahs
HOHO((:

2008-09-25T01:28:00.000-07:00

i tot my whole dae
would be gone in de rain
and i practically slpt
my whole dae off

tats how actually
i spent my whole dae
at home most of de time
unless there is smth
to entertain mee
like hk series

neh mind abt tat
my sexy ass banana
is back frm her adventurous trip
and with stuffs as well
(will be up if there is)

joke of de dae:
who is horse's brother?
ans: camel
why? cos dey look alike

-peektures-

^ if we really are ((:

^ best tat we can be liao; thanks to chandra

2008-09-23T01:02:00.000-07:00

life has been a roaster coaster
even more exciting den tat
ups and downs
for the past weeks
to de very extreme

i did wanna to updates
but i couldnt make up my mind

oh, roaster coaster no longer
a factor to mee ever since
tat day yahs, sexy ass banana
wif tat wonderful curry smell
wif tat "ah" and looking at
each other

and he is back
as expected, schedule is like shit
miserable pay i gotta
and i am unable to agree to
his definition of part-timers
certainly not

den again, nth is fair in this world

cartoon said a lot 人生大道理
and he sound so angry
when he speaks
and its like darn loud
but i am so grateful for his help man
without him, i guess i am
no longer there :/

the place is no longer de same
anymore :(
ppl change to the worse
the last batch, tats us
trying our best to hang on
and survive that
those laughters
those opening
those closing
those cheerings
those toking
those moment
those people
where have dey all gone
expectations drove us to corner

the bottom line:
never ever be a dog in ur whole life
tat would be a last thing you would ever do

**i almost had an intention to stop sch**

2008-09-20T23:24:00.000-07:00

Lyrics Streep, Meryl - Mamma Mia lyrics

2008-09-20T23:04:00.000-07:00

MAMMA MIA!!

2008-09-18T11:55:00.000-07:00

hooked to 家好月圆 at the moment

no time for other stuffs :DDDDD

(guess i will write genting under LJ)

2008-09-16T12:31:00.000-07:00

after 72 hrs, banana and watermelon
are back frm genting highlands
in one piece
wif loads of laughters and silly acts
wif some curry smell

updates soon when i gotta time

2008-09-10T01:14:00.000-07:00

5 years, i been hoping to go there
and todae, boyfrend and i
are jus so going there
is just few hours time

tat place isnt anything
special at all
actually, its nth
but F promised to bring me there
its just the feeling
the bonding
F promised last yr but F
broke agn
and i cried like some
childish child

and i have a so bad feeling
about the trip
just because i been wanting
to go all along
each time, i heard ppl gg
i was so jealous
and i almost hated there for life
and nt allowing myself to go
there ever agn
yet, this time, yessh
its really mee agn
somehow, i have a bad feeling
tat smth bad is gonna happened
which oso show tat how F
is so important to mee

i seem to enjoy crying
in the train ahs, rubbish

nv felt so worried
nv felt so scared
for a trip
and true enuf
its just 2 of us going
let it be a safe journey man

and i wasnt feelling well
de whole dae
plus some unpleasant stuff
during the planning of it
and hence, all acts up to
one big thing

and i could hardly
breathe thru the whole dae
its is jus so suffocating :/

2008-09-07T22:07:00.000-07:00

no doubt my first dae
was last thurs
but i still felt tat
tml is my first dae agn
new lesson
last week was jus like trail

still unprepared
fridae was 10 hrs straight

ytd caught my sis and mee

boys over flower
HAHAHHS
thumbs up for tat
rather long
and almost went to
de wrong theatre
rain caught us aware
on our way home
laughing at our
silliness

sundae left mee
homeALONE rotting
i wanted to go out
but somehow
i was reluctant to go
deep down i wanted to
however i felt something
stopping mee

well, some thoughts
some ppl hate sch
[jus like i do]
some ppl enjoy sch
three yrs alr
still de same
i hate it
and i am sure
tis semester is gonna
be a real tough one
4 mths, which everybody
is toking abt
but i jus cnnt adapt
it realli takes time
furthermore, everyone
are starting to have their
hols nooow
which is making more
uneasy :/

2008-09-04T22:20:00.000-07:00

FIRST DAE!!
surprisingly i managed to
slp rather earlie
the nite before
at around nine-thirty
as i was rather worried
i couldnt slp
for i have countless
sleepless nite
recently
which is like a torture

and in de middle of
de nite
fone rang
and i gt a shock out
of mee man
i tot wad happened
i really tot tat
fire broke out
or war is arriving man

when i finally crawl of bed
to pick up
tat fellow hung up
and dear me, its dearest cecilia
calling mee for some gossips
[girls are really]
HAHHAHS

wad a hectic dae in sch man
but i managed to pull off
by laughing through out
had a strong urge to
stop school at tat instant
its forever lidat on
de first dae
tat 8 hrs was certainly
hard to pass by
and edward hsu
really make my dae
i could almost fall off de chair

and i guess i was rather
ashamed of myself
tat i almost forget
all de names tat i had
[even my original one]
cos we hardly called
each other by names nw
so i was rather lost

kudos
and i am having hols once agn
for there is no lesson on fridae
which is GREAT
but high tendency to skip
on thurs
which is rather a bad sign :[
but lots of ppl are jealous over it
HOHOHO
but i had to come back
on certain fridae jus for UT
aww, man

and i seriously hope tat
eka will put me back
on schedule as per normal agn
otherwise it would be bad

MY WHOLE MIND IS SO THINKING OF NXT WEEK ALR
*roars*

2008-08-29T02:28:00.000-07:00

tat australian certainly
gave us a good start
a slang one indeed
i can guess tat
i am gonna have a
hard time tis sem
its nt gonna be a
easy one
i couldnt understand
a single thing =.='
and of all, monkey!!!
pls let it be a good one :/

i felt tat my life is
in a mess
everytime, certain pt
in life
i couldnt find my goal

anywae, welcome sem2
everything had been set
no turning back
i trust tat GOD had
pave tis way for me
for his reason

work was a torture
wasnt really happy abt it
no matter how money
shine in my eyes
i shall nt bow to
integrity
things are getting out
of hand
out of control
as much as i wanna
to put a stop to it
but i jus couldnt
isnt it miserable? :(

why bother to tell mee anithing
if u are jus lying thru ur teeth
all de while
ironic, isnt it
i dun think i need tat

2008-08-27T02:39:00.000-07:00

i missed him;
out of a sudden
its been a long time since i last saw him
thou he nt tat good
but he is de one and only one

heard he gt new assignment
but i wasnt too sure abt it
till he cfm agn

i felt proud of him suddenly
plus admire him
i guess i was wrong
to look down on him
he was certainly great
to go tat far

2008-08-25T00:54:00.000-07:00

its seem like daes
when i pen down my thoughts
so regarding these,
i guess i am closing
down soon (considering)

i no longer rely
on computer so much
i can be seen
nt online for
more den a dae alr

plus i lend my cousin
my lappie couple of daes ago
but all these are nt issue
there is no reason for
mee to go online
and de adaptor is so
dying on mee

i seem bussi BUT
actually iamSONOT
i am jus wasting my time off
let me tell uu why

i gt three daes
staying at hm entirely
due some matters
[which i do not accept]
and why has it always be
cityhall tat my tears got
to roll down
i couldnt help it
i felt tat i was cheated
and i could really teared man
whole journey
half an hr
how i wish it was darkness
at tat time

so i decided to play him
out de nxt dae
and de weather tis dae
was jus wad i was feeling
raining
suddenly, no expectation
could explain how well
i was feeling these whole week

three bussie daes
[supposedly]
i was tired bushed
but still i was wasting my time
either
i was nt doing anything
productive at all
de weather is not
on our side either
which make it even worse

my schedule was
wellplanned intially
but once, one thing is mess up
everything is mess up infact

the event was terrible
he was evil
tats all i could comment

a rare chance to capture those big figures tgt (:

and time pass real fast
its has been a yr
ever since we said abt our
mooncake date
its was surprising tat u
actually remember
thou i remember as well
but it was a on and off thing man

and i was looking for to 08dec
tat really marks our 3rd yr
thou time is nt a factor
and its doesnt matter
time does not measure
frendship but i do treasure
de time we had together
it was chance and fate
tat we get along
so do not question why
but take good chance of it
before losing it
but time allow mee to
see de another side
which sometimes i simply hate to

2008-08-18T01:22:00.000-07:00

harloee, i am back!!
did ur miss mee? HOHO
[fyi: i did nt go aniwhere]

i am determined to get married
overseas; given a choice
i rather nt settle for singaporean
dey are too typical
disgusted by it

angmoh/hongkong/taiwan
koreans guys are damn hot!!
woot((:

boyfriend, fly to mee

and olympicks just rocks
my pants lahs

and sometimes, i felt myself
being a 2-headed snake
wad a shit i am

once agn, G302 is out!!
tis very moment
its starting
and i felt all tensed up agn
thou i have no idea
wad to do nxt
but somehow i noe
i need to get things started
and need to be on going
tis semester will be a damn
short one, i guess
and all will be rushing and
super packed period
bring me thru, lord

work going well, so far
and hope i can keep it going
and i hate myself
for being irresponsible
working alone no longer
bother mee animore

sometimes, i felt joyful
tat people is reading
but sometimes, i feel tat
why i shld write abt my life
so maybe i shld stop?

and de my organ
die on mee :'(
was thinking whether to
replace or nt
organ transplant need 25 dolli
good to invest?
still need to last for at least
half a yr neh
adaptor alr half-life
everything spoil liao
and wad is warranty for
when its doesnt cover at all!!

2008-08-10T21:42:00.000-07:00

kukup was horrendous
simply a nitemare :'(

2008-08-09T01:57:00.000-07:00

i am such a pig
nv in my whole life
i had 12 sotong balls at one shot
[thanks to Rebbecca]
but of cos i take my time to
eat lahs
at different time thou
plus almost 4 mugs
of iced chocolate;
couldnt really rem

2 more lessons and
tat marks an end to semester AY08/09
should i rejoice or to cry?
i guess nobodi are ready
for de new changes

work resumed
and jus let it be
its jus work at de end of de dae
smth essential for survival

2008-08-08T09:16:00.000-07:00

08.08.08

HEARTS BIG BANG [:

"welcome to Beijing"
喝彩北京!!
where Olympics begins

"will you"
"one united people"
"together"
super feel for national dae!!

2008-08-08T00:35:00.000-07:00

couldnt help but feeling guilty):

2008-08-05T01:44:00.000-07:00

天底下没有不散的宴席
i guess
its time to let go alr
its time to say goodbye alr
its time to say its over
:/

2008-08-05T00:48:00.000-07:00

yessh, we cnnt predict
wads gg happen
de nxt minute
but somehow
i felt cheated

somehow, the words tat uu
first said kept harping
in my mind
so i am unable to
swallowed wad uu gonna say nxt

okays, i am being emotional here
sense of belonging?
i am no longer de person
i knew ytd

2008-08-03T21:46:00.000-07:00

sis pulled mee out for bowling

cos she said she need
some training
but i dun seem so leh
*inside joke*
needless to sae
my performance is like shit
we are like laughing thru out

sometimes, i think
it isnt tat bad jus to go
out for some activities
like bowling and so on
maybe kiteflying some dae?
hoho!!

cant wait to find partner
and play wif all those
funky spunky specs and i had
using my Polaroid
its has been lying there

2008-08-03T02:49:00.000-07:00

still in my mind; up till now

2008-08-03T02:37:00.000-07:00

李玖哲/蒼天

看　江山仿如畫
奈　三分天下
一時多少豪傑　啊~~~
風雲變色群雄爭霸交鋒誰名揚
兵臨城下驀然回首誰在盼歸鄉
三國亂亂世輩出好漢
國將戰誰能一統江山
戰不斷兄弟血淚無憾
紀烽火辜負多少紅顏
誰相思長過長江水盼君歸一寸淚一寸灰
化作蒼天

風雲變色群雄爭霸交鋒誰名揚
兵臨城下驀然回首誰在盼歸鄉
三國亂亂世輩出好漢
國將戰誰能一統江山
戰不斷兄弟血淚無憾
紀烽火辜負多少紅顏
誰相思長過長江水盼君歸一寸淚一寸灰
化作蒼天

三國亂亂世輩出好漢
國將戰誰能一統江山
戰不斷兄弟血淚無憾
紀烽火辜負多少紅顏
看江山如畫蒼天佑天下
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你万万也想不到他竟然可以唱这样的歌呀!!